Trying to get back into the blogging mood

It has been awhile. It has been hard to get into the mood to write about something that with all possibility hasn’t already been blogged about. Nonetheless I will give it another shot – just like with Twitter. It’s been hard staying active there too. I look at my Twitter feed and it has become nothing but an endless re-tweet, spamming of links, self proclaimed social media guru, peddling real estate, make big money wasteland. Don’t get me wrong there are a handful of actual tweeters on there which with one can have a 140 character conversation, but otherwise it is disappointing.

I miss the good old days when I first started out on Twitter (2007) and people where actually interested in what you where doing at this moment ( wasn’t that the actual theme of Twitter?)  and you could have a single tweet turn into a gigantic conversation with 20 to 30 other People joining in, which subsequently could put a group of people into a twitter timeout. Oh did we dislike twitter jail. But it was fun and entertaining. I also feel that some Tweeters have adopted a god like personality and don’t respond to tweets that they deem not worthy ( I know I probably will catch hell for this) but that is the way it is. Yes you have the “Twitter rock stars” who by all rights have become a Twitter personality, but they even still value Twitter enough to be personal with their followers.

Anyway, lets see how well I’ll do trying to re-kindle my blogging mojo and keeping the ” What are you doing” spirit on Twitter alive.

 

Living in fear?

My heart goes out to all the people in Japan that were affected by the enormous Earthquake and Tsunami that followed.  I can not imagine the fear, pain and helplessness these people are going through.

But then I read reports of people in the US going nuts and buying iodine tablets and sensors to detect radiation because of fears that they will be exposed to radiation because of the threat of a nuclear meltdown in Japan.  How scared do you have to be to do that? How much of your Life do you spend living in fear that you actually take these kind of steps to protect yourself?

A big part of this fear mongering is the media. Fear sells news, always has and always will. When reading some of these articles I have to shake my head because they never seem to fail in injecting a paragraph that promotes fear. Yes there will always will be the “What if”, but if we let the “What if” take over our lives,  our lives would be very empty.

I remember Chernobyl. I remember that we weren’t allowed to eat our homegrown veggies and fruit, that live stock wasn’t allowed to be out on the pastures, playgrounds were off limits and any outdoor activity was restricted until a complete assessment of the radioactive cloud was made as a precaution. But we didn’t stop living, we didn’t let fear take a hold of us and sealed ourselves in bunkers because of it. Life is to short, don’t live it in fear.

Making room

A few weeks back, I decided to make some changes in my personal Life that I felt were necessary for me to quiet my inner turmoil that eventually seeped outward and affected my way of dealing with people and other situations. Ultimately the results of those changes, did not completely quiet the turmoil so I had to go and take stock of what else needed to be done.
Realizing that I have become once again an Enabler was one. That was pretty tough to take, since I thought I knew how to handle it and not fall back into the same role. And even though it was not enabling in the same way as years ago, I allowed myself to become the enabler pretty much in other areas. So back to work on this one.
Going back to meditation. I’ve realized that I completely dropped meditation out of my daily life for quit some time now, heck I would say years. Remembering how good it felt and what calmness it achieved, I started back on this routine to help me find my way back to clarity.
Setting up my own personal boundaries again. Changing what crosses these boundaries and not allowing them to manifest themselves in my mind, my personal space and hinder me from progressing of quieting the turmoil within me.
Making room, letting go of things that are not mine to have or to make, things that I cannot control or change in all aspects of my daily life.
Take stock of my own faults, and recognize them at face value and work on them. Without working on them, everything else will be worthless.
” May my higher power grant me Serenity
to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
and Wisdom to know the difference.”

Tough decisions..

Once in a while you encounter a situation that as a human being you feel compelled to step in and try to make it better or help the other person. But sometimes, you have to make the tough decision on not to give in to this urge and let the other person work out their problems on their own.

Right now and it has been for a while now, I have been in a situation like this, were I felt compelled to help and reach out and offer advice, only to watch this Person to continue on the same path. A path that undoubtedly does not benefit them nor improve their Life.

I understand that humans can fall into this trap of depression, this state of despair, like there is no hope or solution or even anything better. I’ve been there and yes I occasionally I still tend to wander there. But it is one thing to give in, complain about it or half heartedly seek a solution to it. Or perhaps wait for a miracle?

So yes , I made the decision to step back and let it be. I was getting more frustrated in this Persons decision-making then it was worth, and caused me to be angry about this easy come, easy go attitude. And it became obvious to me, that this Person is not willing to take the proverbial Bull by the horn and do something to make a change in their Life for themselves or the people surrounding them. I know it is easier said then done, and perhaps some of you readers might think I am being selfish. But one thing I learned back in my days in Al-Anon, you cannot control a situation or make a situation better for the other Person if they are not willing to make the changes themselves.

So yes this was a tough decision to make, to separate myself from that Person and hope that they will find the energy, the motivation one day to make the changes themselves, that they can be proud of for doing it on their own.

My tribute

I am not going to re-hash everything that has been said and written about Michael Jackson. All I know is that I respect this man for his artistic Performance, who has brought Millions of Millions of people together to fight Hunger, to care and to enjoy music and dance like it was meant to be.

Generations after Generations have enjoyed his music and that even includes my Kids. My Son who is fortunate enough to be in the Michigan State Marching Band, had the pleasure of performing a Michael Jackson song at one of the Halftime shows in November of 2008.  He said that this was one of the best shows that this Stadium enjoyed and he is proud to have been part of it. The Band performed Thriller, and I know by now it has been over played everywhere, but this is not the usual performance. This is 300 Band members coming together and making it happen.

Thank you Michael for letting us have your gift, your Talent to enjoy, rest in peace and don’t stop till you had enough.

People watching..

Yes I do it.  And no not in a creepy way. But I tend to do that a lot. Be it in the check out line at the Store, in a crowd, at work , or as a spectator at a sports event.

I watch people and think to myself what that person is thinking off at that particular time. Where he or she lives, what kind of personality they might have or what kind of family life and so on.

Then you also have those  thoughts like, why would they dress like that or why would they wear those ugly shoes with that, what possessed them to get a hair do like that, the kind of questions only a woman would concern herself with. I don’t think guys stand in line wondering about the guy in front them, on what size of toolbelt he has at home. Does he have the one that carries everything including the lunch box or just 3 tools, hammer, screwdriver and pliers? Or if he is a Packers or Cowboys fan? Or that he definately needs some new sneakers.

At work during lunch in the lunch room I watch my co-workers on how they set up their Lunches a certain way, or arrange things to their liking. Are they like this at home too? Do they have a certain routine they follow when they sit down to eat? Why do some talk to themselves when they perform a task?

But with all that people watching I also learn about them. I remember things about my friends their likes and their dislikes without asking, remembering just in the way they react. I learn certain things about my co-workers that I probably would never know if I would not watch them sometimes do certain things.

Now does this apply also to random people you watch in a crowd? Probably not. But it is still fun to just guess. I am just wondering if people out there have done the same to me. Good luck on trying to figure me out, I have not figured myself out yet.

This urkes me..

I need to get something of my chest. I think I woke up on the wrong side of the Bed this morning to be honest. So here is what is urking me: I have a big problem with people that are fake. I experience this everyday in my Life and in all aspects of my Life.

I hate it when people make themselves look good or needy or any other way to get what they want from other people. I just have a big problem with that.

I am who I am. How come others can’t do the same? How come you cannot be yourself ? Why do I have to experience your fake smile and fake insincerity and fake helplessness?  I know, this attitute gets me into trouble.  But I just cannot play that game. I have tried that and it made me physically sick. I had to stop and  I felt 100 percent better once I was done with that charade.

People that pretend to be something they are not, need to look at themselves and either stop their behaviour or they will wind up being the loneliest people in the world, because no one will want to be around them, at least this gal doesn’t.  Okay I’m getting of my Soap Box now.

What the ???

Have you ever wondered how some people find these opportunities of  photo shots, of things that are just wrong? Or funny?

Well Yesterday my Son and I had one of those moments.

This sign is positioned a few feet away from the building and the pharmacy pick-up window.  Why would anyone in their right mind turn right, right there at this spot with nowhere to go too?

Well I tell you why this sign is there. Because I betcha someone tried it. Instead of going around once to come in the correct way, like a normal person would, that Driver probably turned towards the Pharmacy and manouvering their car around for several minutes, till they were able to back in to the drive-through, giving the person working inside of the Window a heart attack and some people a show to laugh at.

It always amazes me, to think that some of the warnings that I read or signs like these, are there, because there is actually someone out there that did it and prompted the warning. My saying is, if it was not for these people, I would be the dumb one, because they sure make me look smart.

Judge Judy…

I love her. She gets that look in her eye, the” My Mother did not raise a dummy” look and people got it coming. And if you are trying to hard, you better watch out.

I don’t understand why people would want to go in front of her, especially on national television when your story just does not jive? I would not want too, because she scares me and I do not want to look like a fool too my friends. Certainly not going to brag to them ” Watch Judge Judy at 5, cause I’m getting my behind chewed by her”

Then the cases that people decide to come up with. Granted some of them are legit, but some of them are just so stupid, I would be ashamed to be on national television with that. Or the excuses some of them come up with. I just wonder how many times the word stupid flashes up in Judy’s head. I betcha a lot.

But then I am also thinking outside of the Court room she lets loose. I would not mind hangin out with her in an Irish Pub once and drink a few Guinesses with her. Betcha she would have some stories too tell. And she’d probably have the joint rockin and would be coming up with a few Limericks also. Just watch out the next day, when she has another show to do, she might just throw the proverbial stick at you.