The headlines this week in our local newspaper covered a local man’s suicide. He took a gun to his head and shot himself and was found dead last Sunday. He was 34 years old, married with 2 small kids. He was a well liked professional person, and I got a chance to meet him last year at a Baseball game. I know that todays Funeral will be a big event in this town, because of his impact not just in his professional life but also in his personal life he had on people.
There was no suicide note found, at least the Sheriff’s office is not saying, there were no signs of him being troubled, everyone that knew him was or is in shock over this. No one know’s what was troubling him so badly to drive him to this decision. Yes, there are certainly rumors flying around, which I won’t go into, since they are just rumors and it would be unfair to him or his family to make such accusations without any kind of proof.
My first thought was ” How selfish of him”, to take his life and leave his wife and kids this way. How selfish of him to leave his wife and kids wonder if they did something to drive him to this decision, or if they missed any signs of him being suicidal.
But then I thought about it. What kind of demons did he have that made him come to this decision, that this was the only way out of this situation? He had it all, a wonderful job, great community relations, a great wife, awesome kids, did he suffer from depression that no-one knew about? Did that contribute to his suicide?
No one knows, and I guess we will never know. The demons he carried won. But his friends and family are left to grief and wonder what happened.
If you are depressed,troubled and think or contemplate to end your life, that this is the only way out, seek help please. There are lots of support groups, professional help and centers that are here to help you. Talk to your friends, family. Committing suicide may be the easy way out of all your troubles, but it will leave a hole in the people that you leave behind that can never be filled. Don’t let the demons win.